Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Where are we now legally?

Well, today was a very important day - November 30, 2011 marks the date where the last parent to sign over their legal parenting rights could change his mind.  Yes, today was the last day for the bio father to say, "No, wait a minute - I don't really want to do this!"  SS's last day to change her mind was on Friday November 25th.  Looks like things are going to be a go!  Does this mean that something could not go wrong?  Of course not, but a HUGE hurdle is out of the way for us.  This is how it works:


First, you must hire a family law/adoption attorney to draw up the paperwork.  Then, they send it to the biological parents via a certified mail situation (to verify receipt).  This alone could take up to 2 weeks (it was about 7-10 days for us).  This packet (that was sent by the lawyer) included the following:  Affidavit of Parentage, Adoption Health History, non-identifying background information, and the Consent to Adoption. They both got these packages independently and were required to fill them out, sign in front of the notary and send it back in the self addressed stamped envelope to the lawyer.  We have received SS's package, and we are waiting on bio dad's package.  According to him, it was sent out on Wednesday before Thanksgiving.


So how do I know that today is the last "change your mind day?"  Well, in the state of NC, there is a 7 day wait period after the consent to adoption form is signed.  Only 7 days?  I was kind of surprised by the short time period actually.  Different states have different laws governing this time period.  I am glad I am in NC and have a short time to wait (those of you that know me well are aware at my inability to wait patiently - especially with stuff like this)!  During this time, the birth parents are able to revoke their agreement to choose adoption.  Usually this happens in newborn situations where the mother gives birth to the baby, signs the form, and then decides she can not go through with the decision.  In cases like ours, where the child is older and the biological parents were the impetus of the adoption, it is less likely to occur.  The clock starts ticking when the notary signs the forms along with the birth parents.  SS signed on Friday the 18th (hence the 25th deadline) and the bio father signed Wednesday the 23rd (hence the 30th deadline).  Therefore, even though we haven't gotten the papers from bio dad yet, we know that the stamped date was on the 24th.


So what does that mean now?  Well, as we had agreed, now that this piece is taken care of, we are going to start keeping Sarah on the weekends for awhile to continue her gradual adjustment into our home.  We feel that this method is the best for her.  We need to now hear back from the lawyer, sign our part of the paperwork so they can file with the courts and then get our home study started.  The home study consists of 3 visits from a licensed social worker who will determine if our home is "fit" for an adopted child (Uh oh - we may be in trouble!  LOL)  Most of this part is just the "formality" of adoption.  The tough waiting is now done.  It would be near impossible for the birth parents to back out of this now.  Unfortunately, it could still take up to 6 months for the court system red tape to be completed and the adoption to become FINAL.  I look forward to that day very much.  Until then.....One More Step is complete!  :)

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Getting to know Sarah

So, yeah, we weren't going to spend time with Sarah until we were SURE we would be adopting - well that didn't last very long!  We were so anxious to get to know the sweet angel that we had seen from time to time at church.  We ended up setting up a play date with Sarah and Nanna at the park to spend an hour or so with her on a Saturday soon after we had met with the lawyers.


When we got there Sarah was in a happy mood (which we would learn is always the case!)  She was excited to swing, go down the slide and just run around.  It was uncanny how she just took to the two of us  immediately.  She was clearly comfortable with us.  We just followed her lead - and soon realized she LIKES to be the leader - she had no problem telling us where we were supposed to stand and what we were supposed to do.  There was no question that Sarah had a mind of her own for sure!  She insisted on going down the BIG SLIDE over and over - the girl has no fear (uh-oh).  We also learned about her love for Sunglasses.  She LOVES LOVES LOVES her pink sunglasses - and if there is even a sliver of a ray of sunshine she must be wearing them.  We also learned that she loves Dora the Explorer - we had brought a set of Dora books with us when we met her and she LOVED reading them with both of us.  We were learning that she is an easy going young lady with a constant smile and adorable giggle.  I learned from her Nanna that day that she was super smart too.  She recognizes all of her capital letters already (remember she is 2 1/2), she knows her numbers and colors.  She speaks in full sentences and uses upper level vocabulary.  Wow!  This was a big change from our older boys - they couldn't speak words that we understood until well into year 3.  LOL.


When we left that day, Nanna asked if we wanted to spend the day Sunday with her.  We were excited about bringing her to church and spending the day together and we were excited to say an absolute YES!  Again, we were wanting to wait on any overnight visits, but day visits would be great.  We agreed that this would be a gradual process of bringing her into our home full time and it would be ideal for us to start with day visits, then weekend visits and then eventually full time.  We weren't sure of a time line exactly, but we were going with our gut and trusting that God would work out the details.  This is when we decided to just use the idea of ONE STEP AT A TIME to get through this waiting process.  The waiting can really kill you if you let it.  I heard over and over, "have the 7 days started?  When is she yours?  Will she be yours soon?  When does the paperwork get sent out? etc."  We just didn't know all of the answers, but we did know that God was the one in charge and we were just along for the ride!


What else did we learn about Sarah in our first weekend together?  She will eat just about anything you put in front of her.  She listens like a champ.  She loves to boss around our dog (who is smaller than her so that makes her feel like a big girl).  She naps when you tell her too (although if you ask her if its time to nap she either responds with "I wake up!" or "2 more minutes").  She loves Evan and Jacob and can get them to do just about anything for her.  She has been loved and nurtured her entire life.  She has no problem attaching to other people.  She is shy when she first meets you but will warm up after awhile.  She loves to watch "my shows" which means Dora the Explorer!  She would rather eat off of your plate than have one of her own.  She has the best hugs and kisses ever!


Well that was our first weekend together.  Since then we have spent at least one day each weekend together continuing to get to know one another.  She calls me "Cindy" still because mommy already has meaning for her and it means someone else.  We will get through that part over time.  She calls Jay "Daddy Jay" because she doesn't have another daddy to confuse that name with.  We didn't stick to our guns and have NO OVERNIGHTS until all paperwork is signed and sealed.  We had her overnight one Thursday because Nanna had a late night event she had to attend.  She did great - slept all night and was a good listener and easy to get ready for daycare the next morning.


Stay tuned for "Where are we now" concerning the legal process and our adventures together with Sarah and the family.  One more post and I think I will have the time caught up!  Thanks for reading...

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Step ONE of the journey

So, now you know the background of how this adoption journey started.  Our mantra through this entire process has been "One more step" because if you try to process all of it all at once, it would be like drinking from a fire hose!


Once I spoke with SS's mom I felt more certain that this was for real and it was really going to happen.  Of course, I was not willing to put myself really out there right away.  You have to protect yourself somewhat you know.  I asked a very great friend of mine Jena Penner who has been in the adoption circle for awhile now (she adopted 2 kids from Uganda to add to her 4 biokids to make their "6-pack") and asked her some of the basic questions.  Things like, "How long does this take?  Who do I need to contact?  How soon can we have her spend time with us?  etc."  She had a few answers and gave me some great resources to use as I began the research process.


One of the first things I learned is that in North Carolina there is a 7 day waiting period, "the you can change your mind" time where the biological parents can back out.  Usually this happens after the birth (when newborns are adopted) but it also applies in older child adoptions as well.  This period begins once the biological parents sign over their parental rights.  I was kind of shocked it was such a short period of time, but relieved at the same time.  I also learned that we had choices as to going through an adoption agency (which would be expensive) or go through an adoption attorney.  We chose to find a family law attorney that handled adoptions.


For all of you locals that listen to WBFJ you will recognize the attorneys of Hartsoe and Associates.  We chose to schedule an appointment with them to find out about how to get this process started.  I got the basic information I needed from SS's mom (by now we are communicating almost daily) about SS and the birth father.  I phoned the birth father's parents to let them know what was going on.  They agreed to contact the birth father and give him the basics of what was happening.  They shared with me that there wouldn't be any contesting on his part and to just keep him in the loop of what was happening with the adoption.


So off to the lawyer we go.  I had a huge list of questions - anyone who knows me has experienced the fact that when I am faced with something I turn it into a research project.  When we found out my older son had ADD and a Learning Disability, I became an expert on those subjects.  When my younger son began to have hair falling out and eventually became bald, I became and expert on Alopecia.  This was no different for me.  I wanted to know everything I needed to know so that I had a handle on how this whole thing was going to work.  As it turns out, we ended up just talking more than anything with the attorney and he gave us the run down on how things would play out.  There are no guarantees, it could take time, and he would be available and keep us in the loop through the entire process.  We felt like we could trust him and agreed to get the ball rolling.


During this entire time, there continued to be an open dialogue with SS.  She continued to seem steadfast in her decision despite some contrary opinions of people in her life.  She assured me that this decision was made and she was going to stick to it.  You know how that is though, couldn't really trust it.  We decided not to begin visiting with Sarah until after the 7 day wait period was over - just to try and protect our hearts.  SS's mom (from now on I will refer to her as Nana) understood and said she was willing to begin visiting whenever we were ready.  We signed our agreement with the law firm and the waiting now began.


Stay tuned for the next installment of the "paperwork process."  Our journey was just beginning...

How our adoption journey started

I decided to blog about this so I have a record of our journey to share with Sarah when she is older and able to understand.  Here it goes..


So, we are on the adoption train.  Really?  How in the world did this happen?  What about that comment we always said to folks about starting our family early..."We will be in our 40's when the kids leave home! Party time!"  Well all has changed!


Where did this adoption journey start?  Well, it started about 7 or 8 years ago.  We felt a pull in our heart to adopt.  We felt we were getting nudges about looking into the possibility.  We researched, sent for information from adoption services, etc.  However, we just never felt the final push to pull the trigger.  We have friends that have adopted and admired their journey and supported them in their endeavors but we just didn't feel like it was the right time.  It never became the right time for us.


Then, 3 years ago we were faced with a situation personal to us regarding adoption.  I remember the night very clearly.  You see, I am a youth leader at my church and have developed some amazing connections with some amazing kids.  I cherish my mentor - student relationships with my youth girls.  I don't have biological girl children, or even any nieces to bond with.  My high school youth girls mean the world to me.  They are like my own kids!  One youth ministry meeting in the fall of 2008 I was approached by some girls regarding one of our youth kids who was especially upset.  I went to her to speak with her and pray with her.  Turns out her sister (who was 15 at the time) was pregnant and considering abortion.  She was very adamant that abortion was wrong and desperately wanted to talk some sense into her sister!  I also knew her sister well (as I was her youth leader specifically - not to mention her 7th grade math teacher back in the day) and I told her immediately that she needed to tell her sister that we would adopt her baby no matter what and she did not need to abort!  I urged her to tell her sister and her mom to call me right away so we could talk.


Amazingly, the 15 year old (for the purposes of this blog I will call her SS) decided not to abort and was happy with the idea of an open adoption between our families.  I was thrilled at the prospect of parenting again, although very overwhelmed at the thought of a newborn.  At the time my own boys were 10 and 13 so it had been quite awhile since we did the "baby thing."  I was willing to go there, though, because it meant a better life for that baby and a way for SS to preserve her childhood.  Everyone seemed to be on board in thinking this was the best plan for this family.


Around Christmas time that year (baby was due in April) SS was still going back and forth, back and forth with her decision to parent or to choose adoption.  She is the type of teenager that could never get enough attention, loved creating drama, and very indecisive about most things (well, that is probably like most teens right?  She was to the max though!).  Jay and I never became "all in" with the adoption plan at this point because she was so wishy washy.  We decided that she needed to have a specific date to make a final decision so we could get the legal side of things going.  We gave her until the first of the year.  When January 1, 2009 came, she just couldn't make that mature decision to choose adoption.  I think she was concerned with all of the attention following the baby to us and away from her.  She desperately wanted someone to love her deeply.  She had no idea how hard it would be even though all of the adults in her life tried to advise her about it.  She was just a lost 15 year old who couldn't make that difficult choice.


We felt at that time disappointed but not crushed.  We never let ourselves get completely taken in and said to ourselves that if the only purpose God had for us in this journey was to disrupt the abortion decision, then we were used in mighty way and were honored to fill that role.  Throughout the course of the birth (I went to the hospital to see the family.  Pray with them, etc.) and the first several years of Sarah's life (yes, she had a girl named Sarah Elizabeth) I continued to check in on the family frequently.  I would see SS and Sarah at church from time to time.  I helped SS with a class she was taking about teacher education.  I prayed for them a lot.  One thing that I wouldn't let happen, however, was to be taken advantage of by SS.  She would try to get us to watch Sarah for long weekends or take on some care taking roles, but we would always respond by saying, "you can both come over!" because we wanted her to take on the parenting responsibilities that she chose to have.


About 2 months ago we found out that SS was moving to her hometown in Missouri.  She is still seeking for approval from her father (who never had much to do with her growing up) and this is where her father lives.  She didn't like the fact that her mother held her responsible for taking care of Sarah.  She didn't like that her mother was making her find a job and go to school.  She didn't want her mother to have a say in who she was dating, etc.  She was ready to leave the state and start over....with Sarah in tow.  We were all very worried about her taking Sarah with her since she didn't have a job and about $100 and a tank of gas to her name.  Her mom talked her into leaving Sarah here with the hope that another family member would bring her to MO around the time of the holidays once they were all settled.  SS agreed to this plan.


So, the day she was leaving was a Sunday.  She came to church that morning so she could say goodbye to all of us that continued to mentor and support her.  I asked if she would step out alone with me so I could pray with her.  I told her at that time that my wish for her was to be successful and happy doing exactly what God put her on this earth to do.  I also shared with her that the offer to adopt was never off of the table, and she needed to know that.  I also encouraged her to really pray about what she wanted for herself and her daughter as she was getting time away from the situation for awhile.  I sincerely wanted the best for her and her family and I would always be there to pray, talk, or anything else she needed.  She left that day with the boyfriend, leaving Sarah with her mom.


About a month after SS left, I get a phone call - on a Friday night after Jay and our youngest Evan left for a middle school church retreat with youth.  It was SS.  She was very sombre and said she needed to talk.  I told her I would always be there to listen.  She proceeded to ask me if we would adopt Sarah.  I was in shock.  I really thought that journey was over.  I really did!  She said that she wanted Sarah to have a home with a mom and dad and brothers who love her and give her the opportunities she wouldn't get if she stayed with SS.  I asked what she wanted us to do next and she said to start the paperwork.  Wow - crazy right?  I made it clear that we weren't willing to go on a roller coaster ride again - no yes today no tomorrow type of journey.  I said that it would KILL ME if we started the process and it didn't go through.  She promised that this was for real this time and she would not do that to me again.  I called Jay after I got off of the phone with SS and he was just as shocked as I was.  He had a body of believers who had been on this journey with us who supported him all weekend and it was amazing!


So - we are adopting - what a crazy ride this has been.  Stay tuned to the next article on what happened next.